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things change: i started this on the 25th but it is now the 26th

December 26, 2014

this is my first time to celebrate Christmas on a negative degree weather..

this is my first time to spend it without my mom and dad..

this is the first Christmas i dont get to eat that sweet yummy give-away ham..

 this is the first Christmas that i teared up uncontrollably in front of a laptop monitor..

but

this is my first time to have a true winter wonderland Christmas.

this is the first time that my folks learn to be independent in using their gadgets; we got to spend Christmas from different sides of the world (thanks to technology).

this is my first Christmas eve to have turkey on the table.

this is my first Christmas to be feeling this unexplainable strong emotion which i cannot keep on my own, and i am glad that i have someone who willingly understands my roller coaster reactions -OA smile, crazy make-faces, sarcastic laugh, silent stare, involuntary sobs, invisible(?) tears, etc.

wherever you are at this time of the year, always look at the bright side. whatever the circumstance is, remember that the reason of the season is still and will forever be HIM. happy birthday Jesus!

merry Christmas! (:

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Di Na Ganun

July 7, 2008

Paano na lang kung ako ang iiyak sa iyo
Paano na yan buti kung may magawa pa ako
E paano na kung ako na ang nahihirapan
Magagawa ko ba sa yo na bigla kang talikuran

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Wala na ang dating tamis
At sa tingin ko’y di ko na maibabalik

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Bakit di ko maaming wala na ang dating damdamin
Di na ganun
At hindi ko na kayang piliting muli mong angkinin
Di na ganun

Paano na lang kung biglang masabi ko sa iyo
Buti kung intindihin mo ako
Paano kaya kung ikaw ay akin nang iwasan o iwanan

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Ibubulong na lang sa hangin ang aking nararamdaman

Nalilito na ako pano mo ba malalaman

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Di Na Ganun by Yeng Constantino

– Great music, great intensity. It cuts. It torments. Tears fell down; emotions burst inside. But one thing why i love this song -I’m thinking, perhaps wishing, that one day, I’d be able to say it.. with courage, with conviction.